Dear Diary,
It came as it had to come. As it always does when I try to sweeten the time with my fellow human beings. My generosity is mercilessly exploited. Probably not even intentionally and not maliciously anyway. But it doesn't change the result. It occupies my brain for days. My pulse races, instead of 60-70 at rest, I'm happy if we settle around 90 rather than over 100. I'm annoyed, stressed, my nursing service is not interested at all, and I'm stuck with the costs, as always.
I think I'm known for making myself unpopular. And so I wrote in the group:
What a pity. I always enjoyed drinking an Aperol Spritz with my carers. Or even a great whisky or whiskey once in a while. Provided it was appreciated. And of course only if the initiative comes from me.
Never in my life - and not three times after that - would I have allowed a full bottle of 25-year-old Glengoyne to be raped with Coke and tons of ice and drunk completely dry on duty. What an outrage, you would have been stoned to death for that in Scotland. But here? Nah, you just help yourself to the next bottle. I didn't get the promised replacement this time, just as I didn't get it last time. And I'll never see the money for the pizza from the Grünwalder Holzofen Pizzabäcker again - after all, it was 13.90 € for a simple pizza salame, plus a 2 € tip. Well, according to the nurse, it was so important to prevent the acute onset of a fat migraine. Well, there it is again, the migraine. Wink smiley.
As for this ominous €2,000 I keep talking about, that was a mental arithmetic exercise. I simply added up all the prices, including the bottles that were still there at Christmas and are now gone. Because what a special caregiver here says about my alcohol consumption is just a complete lie. This year I drank one night with friends. Okay, probably only a few can claim to drink a bottle of white wine and then half a bottle of whisky afterwards - and all that by pressure refuelling via the PEG. But that was the only time. After that, there was always something. To be honest, I've lost my appetite for alcohol. Twice too often recently I have seen what alcohol does to people. Another story.
In order to give my theft list more substance, I did the following. I went through the order history at my favourite online retailer and noted down all the whisky orders.
Then friends of mine are allowed to rummage through the bar and tick off everything that is still there. It's true that all the bottles I got myself as a gift and those I bought in town - when I could still walk - are missing. But it's better than nothing and so I can at least say that it was in fact even more and definitely not a bit exaggerated. I'm looking forward to the result, which will follow after the successful count.
Here is a small foretaste of what to find.
 | Talisker 10 Year Single Malt Scoth Whisky 45.8% vol | 37,99 € |
| Talisker 10 Year Single Malt Scoth Whisky 45.8% vo | 37,99 € |
| Talisker 10 Year Single Malt Scoth Whisky 45.8% vol | 37,99 € |
 | Absolut Vodka Original | 23,44 € |
 | Lagavulin 16 Years Islay Single Malt Scotch Whisk | 89,99 € |
 | Lagavulin 12 Years - Special Releases 2022 | Single Malt Scotch Whisky 57.3% vol. | 149,99 € |
 | Glengoyne The LEGACY Series CHAPTER TWO 2020 48% vol. | 89,90 € |
 | Glenmorangie The ELEMENTA 14 Years Old Highland Single Malt Charred Oak Cask Finish Whisky | 68,81 € |
 | Glenmorangie 15 Years Old The CADBOLL Estate Batch No. 2 | 89,00 € |
 | Glenmorangie BARREL SELECT RELEASE 12 Years Old MALAGA CASK FINISH 47.3% vol. | 151,40 € |
 | Glengoyne 12 Year Single Malt Scotch Whisky | 51,99 € |
 | Glenmorangie Lasanta Sherry Cask Finish Single Malt Whisky | 51,89 € |
 | Glengoyne 18 years 43% vol. - no longer available for purchase - | 126,66 € |
 | Glenmorangie The ACCORD 12 Years Old Highland Single Malt Bourbon & Sherry Cask Whisky | 65,99 € |
 | Glengoyne BALBAÍNA European Oak Oloroso Sherry Casks Whisky | 50,66 € |
 | Glengoyne CUARTILLO American Oak Oloroso Sherry Casks Whisky | 52,99 € |
 | Glengoyne Highland Single Malt Scotch Whisky PEDRO XIMÉNEZ SHERRY CASKS | 114,34 € |
 | Glenmorangie 13 Years Old Barrel Select Release Cognac Cask Finish 46% vol. | 79,99 € |
 | Glenmorangie Highland Single Malt Scotch Whisky 18 Years | 92,53 € |
 | Glenmorangie Spìos Private Edition No. 9 | 102,95 € |
 | Glenmorangie A TALE OF WINTER Highland Single Malt Limited Edition | 102,00 € |
 | Highland Park 12 Years Viking Honour Single Malt Scotch Whisky | 34,12 € |
| Absolut Vodka Original | 23,44 € |
| Absolut Vodka Original | 23,44 € |
 | Auchentoshan THREE WOOD Single Malt Scotch Whisky – no longer available for purchase - | 44,39 € |
 | Dalwhinnie 15 years | 45,99 € |
 | Glenfarclas 25 Years Old | 194,93 € |
 | Suntory Yamazaki Single Malt Distiller's Reserve Whisky | 126,00 € |
 | Glengoyne 21 Years Single Malt Scotch Whisky | 193,38 € |
 | The Dalmore King Alexander III Whisky | 184,90 € |
 | Glenmorangie Signet | 162,90 € |
 | Glenmorangie Lasanta 12 Years Sherry Cask Finish 2020 - no longer available for purchase - | 66,89 € |
 | Glenmorangie The Original Highland Single Malt Scotch Whiskey | 41,87 € |
| Glenmorangie The Original Highland Single Malt Scotch Whiskey | 41,87 € |
| Glenmorangie 15 Years Old The CADBOLL Estate Batch No. 2 | 89,00 € |
 | Glenmorangie NECTAR D'OR 12 Years Old Highland Single Malt Scotch Whisky 46% vol. | 56,90 € |
 | Lagavulin Distillers Edition Islay Single Malt Scotch Whisky - no longer available for purchase - | 116,04 € |
